i dunno

Lessons were there. I'm just not sure I ever learned them. They seemed to hang in the air,
allusive. I must've looked past them. Somehow they haunted me in their happening.
I suppose I'm just a fool, wandering. Days mean little. Night mean even less.
     I'm a ghost & I see all of us. It's only because I don't see myself. I've lost sight.
My life seems lost to desolate days. Nothing ever takes places along these wayward streets.
Your vision is beyond me. I was in search of something simple. Somehow that grew complicated.
Yet somehow, now, it's just me. Taking one step in front of the other. No salvation, just stepping stones. Stoned to the bone. Alone. Suffering.
       I can handle that. Can't handle anything. Nothing yet, at least. Not since she left me. 
A gun to the head would almost be too easy. I'd be too good for that. I was born worth anything & everything.
         Now I'm nothing. What gives? I suppose I did. I gave too much. Too much away. Now there's nothing left of me. I'm left empty.
Stabbing away at hollow words, in hopes that they can save me. They cadn't. Nothing can. Not a damn thing in the end. Smile bag of bones. Empty soul.
The ENd.